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 Sungmin is so neomu keyopta. Lee Sungmin, why you so cuteeeeee? ****** I didn't get that much sleep today, because my mind kept thinking about results. Yes, today is my result's day. Guess what, my result is shit! I flunk one subject and have to take SUPP paper. FML, i really hate it, because my schedule will be affected. & I don't want to fail it again and retake the whole damn module next semester. I don't know why, i cried the moment i logged into the website and i was really badly affected by it. It's the same exact feeling as when i fail my driving that time. Because there are friends who accompany me to the driving test, hence i don't want to cry in front of them. But today, i was left alone in the room. My thoughts started running wild, and my tears started forming and then the next thing i know, i'm crying early in the morning alone in the room. I feel so shitty in the morning, i studied hard for it, i do all the exam paper, go through the mistake, study the tutorial and in the end, what kind of shit i get. F! F for FUCK! I'm really very pissed off, when i ask my friends for answer after the exam, we got the same answer for most of it. BUT WHY DID I STILL FAIL IN THE END? I REALLY WANT TO SEE MY PAPER RIGHT NOW. I put alot of effort in it but why did i still fail. Other subjects i didn't put that much effort but i still pass, but for this, i put in a whole lot of effort but i still fail. I'm in a complete self denial mode now. The moment i see the lecture notes, i really feel like crying again. I feel so angry, not with myself, but angry for no reasons. I feel so betrayed. I FEEL SO FUCKED UP NOW! I thought that by having retail therapy, i will be happy, i will move on with my life, but i guess i'm wrong. I still can't get over the fact that i fail. People will say, "fail is fail already, you can't change the fact that you fail." I feel like i'm such a weakling. I let CMATHS ruin my mood, i let CMATHS make me feel like giving up. To the extent that i don't feel like studying anymore. Nevertheless, i'm thankful for all those who gave me encouraging words this morning via twitter/msn/sms.
Thursday, March 17, 2011 @ 17.3.11 0 Comment(s)
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